To have gripped
And lolled your weight on my shoulders
Ungirdled , yet tensile by the logs it bear
Who knew
So few,
to have guessed the hands
you held soft-----once ungloved
Could get the coarsest jobs clear
For those eyes taken to be
Haunting and killing and more
Could belch the dread I live in and
Charcoal smear…
Satin mien of pink
now dappled with blotches
------burnt ?
Oh damn, no sabotage meant
Yet no harm.
But what to be done
to have loved the hated e’erafter
Shun me ?
Take it easy
Tell me to puff the dirt off
my laughter ?

